A Living Death
Jonathan Edwards reflected this idea in the resolutions listed below. The eighth resolution addresses this idea indirectly --- Edwards saw himself as he really was… a living death.
Resolved, to act, in all respects, both speaking and doing, as if nobody
had been so vile as I, and as if I had committed the same sins, or had the same
infirmities or failings as others; and that I will let the knowledge of their
failings promote nothing but shame in myself, and prove only an occasion of my
confessing my own sins and misery to God.
Keeping the cause of his condition at the forefront of his mind, he also kept the reality of his condition at the center. Think of it… what will the day of your death be like? Edwards determined to be prepared at all times for that day.
Resolved, to think much on all occasions of my own dying, and of the common
circumstances which attend death.
If I can imagine my own death, and can see how justly God should remove me from this life, then any suffering I endure in this life will be seen as deserved, though far short of my true deserts. Since God would be justified to send me to hell, it is not hard to think of the torments of hell. Many Christians resolve to be always conscious of the torments of hell in order to be more zealous for souls. But Edwards used this vision for a different purpose. Consider his tenth resolution:
Resolved, when I feel pain, to think of the pains of martyrdom, and of hell.
If I die daily to self, then my suffering works greater glory for the Lord, and I can rejoice in my weaknesses, my sorrows, my sufferings.
Labels: Edward's Resolutions
